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I came upon this website - Celebrific.com - with the photo of Ben Affleck and Matt Damon. And they asked who was hotter. (http://www.celebrific.com/you-tell-me-whos-hotter-matt-damon-or-ben-affleck/)



I mean, this aren't the most flattering pictures of Matt Damon - he's only he's hottest in Bourne - but is this mocking Affleck? This are some of the worst pictures of him! Even compared to Damon's worst!!


I'm being partial here. Matt Damon looks ok. But put Ben Affleck next to him and his the most gorgeous man you've ever seen.

Disgraceful.

But to be honest, Matt Damon is one of the very very few - actually, I think he's the first, if not second, because I cannot remember one prior - that I admire for his acting abilities.

I watched Bourne Identity and the most I went was, "Cool..."

But after, I watched The Good Shepherd and it was, "SHIT COOL!"

Comparing the performances, Bourne is cool. Mother is Hot.

Another thing that attracts me apart from beauty is the talent. And that role in Good Shepherd was one of the most raw talent I've seen.

But I must say, after that, I had a whole new respect for Angelina Jolie too. I think I recognised her only in the 3rd or 4th shot of her in close-up. De Niro was not bad in there either. They all held themselves so differently from their usual roles. I'm digging through old movies to catch things I was too blind to miss before.

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LYL

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God I am so desperate. I have to get a boyfriend soon.

I have a new idol, Matt Damon. And it's so typical of me to choose one already takn. Pathetic of me to try and prevent my heart from breaking when seeing a caption saying 'Matt Damon and his lovely wife...'.

Pathetic.

Worse still, I have to argue with myself that the picture they make while taking a walk is really sweet or not. ARGH!!!

If one is not gay the other is taken.

And I always hated that stupid phrase but it is just so true.

Not like anyone I've chosen so far is really attainable in anyway (another tick for miserability), but I swear if the one reasonable guy I fall for and is within my grasp is either one of that, (by taken, I mean married) I'll go lesbian.

Not really. But I guess I'll just take them into a larger consideration.

But Matt Damon is so totally cool.

And, to me, he's not even a pretty boy. He's not the usual I would go for, that's for sure. But I guess it has something to do with me loving the gay Randy Harrison in the first place.

Between

and

I think you can see what I mean.

Changing my target from Gay to Married is not an improvement. Though Tiff was rather relieved that he's my first straight idol in a while. At least the top one. I do love a man that strikes me as cute/handsome/beautiful, whether straight or gay. I just had an obsession with Queer as Folk, and thus, Randy Harrison and the gay characters for a while.

And too bad that the courage I value for coming out to the world is for homosexuals only. If straight guys can impress me with courage they are pretty rare.

;)

LYL

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I haven't applied for Deakin and even after, I'm not even sure if I can get in. But the anxiety and sadness is still creaping in. I should be feeling excited but I can't help it. I'll be leaving so many things behind.

EJ and EZ are at this young period where it depends on whether I'll be there or not. And Ka is going to have a baby sometimes next year too. I'll miss all that!! NO!!!!!! This really overrides all the excitement of the opportunities that'll be opened to me.

Refer to my Screenplayer blog for that side of stuff.

I actually cried thinking about leaving. Of course it'll be exciting go to such an unfamiliar place with so many thigns to explore! To mae a new start and new friends! But it's so scary at the same time! No one I know (except maybe Jean Anne may be going too) will be there. It'll be so different from a holiday when you know that in a few days, you'll be flying home to everything and everybody again and that everything you do is just enjoyment and will have no real impact on your life but to have a greater time! And you really don't have to think about what I'm gonna do for dinner. How this will save me a coupla more dollars to last me throughout the week.

I said I'd always love the independence. It's a way to prove myself. But what I never said, though I did confess to myself, is that I know it'd be hard. And (although part of why I'll love it is the difficulty - I'm a masochist that way) if I think about it too hard and much, I'll be terrified.

I'll get through it because I know I can. I can prove myself through the experience. I want to push myself to my limits and I know I'll come out better the other side. It's sort of like a training I know I need. Though I know when it comes to the experience itself, it's a love-hate relationship.

I'll be applying soon. After the 21st, which is when our previous semester's results will be out, according to Jean Anne, who told me a little to late. I already have an official transcript from my school, which cost me $5.35. But it doesn't contain the results of the revious sem. So I'm waiting
to see if the new results will bring up or down my aggregate. Hahah. If it's up I'll just ay $5.35 more. (Although I'm still half hoping not to get in. Hm.... I'll get overit soon.)

;P
LYL

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I forgot what we were talking about today to lead to this particular topic but it did. And it ended as quickly as it started.

I think I was reminding one of my parents once again about dipping their food into too much sauce. And then my dad said something along the lines of, "See, if we ever attempt suicide one day, she'll be the one to pull the knife away from us."

So I said, "Yah, but you will pull it back anyway and still cut yourself."

It ended there.

I was thinking that if they were really in a bad mood or just not wanting to listen, my dad'd say, "Don't believe everything they tell you. A little cut won't kill you." and my mum would say, "Don't talk to me like that, ok? I'm your mother." and slice, dissatisfied, frowning all the way.

And they say I'm obnoxious and inappropriate.

:P
LYL

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It's been a kind of hectic lull. I don't know what to do with myself. Projects to do that are not being done (refer to my Screenplayer blog). I have an almost constant headache and an even more constant backache. Who ever said excercise makes your body feel better?
So I've decided this will be another blog I will update alongside my Screenplayer one, which is about my life as a budding-filmmaker. This one will eb more personal and used as a medium of sorts to bring others to the less known Ning webpages. I'm just more established there.
I don't know how or when my blog page is going to be set up. Qiu (my sis) is to help me. I think she has it half-done, but I haven't the urgent need to go look at it. I don't even have a solid idea anyway. It may remain the way it is now. I'm a simpleton. A gorgeous, beautiful one, but one nevertheless.
Links will be placed to link you guys to my other pages like my Ning pages and Facebook cos there is no point uploading pictures and information twice. I'll choose whichever webs I like more for their strong points and use each individually. I havea problem of just sticking to one. It's never worked before.
Now I'll go update the rest of my stuff. Watch out peeps!

;P
LYL

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It's my first blog post!!! Yeah!!! After this, witht the help of my dear sis, I'm gonna change the look of it. Cos I'm a computer idiot that way!!
I have other blogs but this is gonna be my HEADQUATERS!! Everything will branch out from here. Get ready peeps!!

;P
LYL