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Might as well post now when I'm still in-between my own worlds and happen to be on the net.

Supposed to have completed work by 0530hrs but I screwed up and eneded up making everybody stay till 0700hrs. Sorry guys. Owe you guys one.

I forgot to say I passed my NAPFA pretty long back.

Haven't posted pics in facebook for quite a while. Maybe... soon...

Eh...

Deakin offered e a 5 grand scholarship but I saw it too late. But it wouldn't have made much difference if I took a Swinburne 1.5 yr advanced standing. And I'll save a year. So I missed the dateline for the scholarship but let it go.

However, May not even be going overseas after all. I'm having second thoughts and I voiceed it and, you wouldn't believe this, my father threw back my idea that I gave him at the very beginning of the whole dabate a few months ago.

I'll work fisrt. See if I need the degree after. Most probably I won't. I dunno. A degree sounds very nice but it's a fact that it doesn't count for much when you can't do shit in the industry.

My feet stinks. It's been raining until my feet didn't dry properly.

:|
LYL

271107 2321

131107: Linkin Park was GREAT!!!
161107: My birthday was wonderful. Check out pictures in my Facebook Account.
171107: I find out that I feel like jumping and screaming my lungs out and waving my arm when I listen to any Linkin Park song or rock song.
231107: I finish my 2nd showreel.
261107: First day of my official internship.

So today was my 2nd day and it turns out it's a half day because the company has a private function and let us off at 1500hrs. I actually planned to come home to do some work but EJ and gang was over. So I took the rest of the day taking care of the kid. But he's learning fast. He can string more words together now to form phrases. And his words are getting clearer.

Ben called me today to ask me if I wanted to take on a freelance screenwriter job for some children stuff that his boss is working on. (He's also on internship, I forgot where.) That reminds me. I have to ask more people.

;P
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LYL

141107 1623

Friday is my birthday. Looking forward to the steamboat dinner. The Manias, my 0504 pals, are gonna celebrate most prob on Sunday. I dunno if I should arrange a date with my secondary school friend whom I haven't seen in a while.

I want to let them know I still remember them, even for the lack of the communication.

Kor's bringing home a girl on Friday. It turns out, she's younger than me by about 1 1/2 months. He almost expected me to call her 'jie'. Hey, as much as I respect respect, she's younger than me.

She's actually '89 and I'm '88 but we're the same year cos it's just a day, she she joined the '88 batch.

I don't expect her to act so. I act childish but, in my opinion, people are too uptight. Laughing, simling, acting how you want is the way of life.

I still apply decorum, just when needed. But no one said you can't retain your smiles through that.

;P
LYL

141107 1608

Yesterday was one of the best days ever!!!! I went for the coolest concert! Linkin Park rocks!!!

We reached around 8 but the concert didn't start till around 9pm. Qiu and I amused ourselves with spotting shuaige's and playing games and laughing at stupid things. Kor slept. Haha.

And then they started.

It was... some were a bit slow starting. I mean, we're in a god-damned ROCK CONCERT. Did they really expect to sit throughout? Some only rose after the band told them to.

Disgraceful. Absolutely disgraceful.

I was up from the 2nd song and from there everything just escalated.

But it was real stupid when the slow songs came and half the stadium sat down. So typically Singaporean.

Linkin Park put on an amazing show and I think a lot of it, aprt from the music ofcourse, was the lights. They burst up and went low in synch with the music and that really hyped the crowd up.

I lost my voice halfway through and my right arm ached from lifting it up for so long. Haha. It was well worth it though.

To be honest, MCR is gonna have a hard time next month. But... nah... I think I'll still love them no matter what.

I get a chance to pass something to them as apparently Qiu's friend got chosen in the Black Parade dress up thing. So he'll be meeting them backstage on the day of the concert.

I can't say I'd die to be in his position. I, like my sis, wouldn't know what to do if we actually went up to someone who who scream, swoon, drool, squeal and do many other sill things over.

Cos it's exactly that, silly. A lot of it is for fun and just to get into the 'fan mode'. I'd rather meet them as a professional.

So, with the connection I have, I'll most prob just pass a note to them.

It's not a 'Here's my number. Call me.' or, even worse, a 'OH MY GODDDDDD!! I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!!!! I WOULD DIE FOR YOU!!! note. Cos I'd laugh if I ever saw such a note, much less it be addressed to me.

I'll let them know that I'm grateful for the moments their music gave me. That's it. Cos I really am.

:)
LYL

131107 1418

Counting down the minutes till we have to leave for the Linkin Park concert. Thinking of what to wear and whether i can sneak in a short snort nap before I have to get ready.

Gonna have dinner first. Picking up my kor and mummy respectively then going to eat at Kallang. Then after they drop us off, dad and mum will go shopping wherever they can actually shop there.

I hope there's good food. If I'm gonna eat, I'm gonna eat good. that's kinda why my diet is going downhill. After the slimming, you just don't want to get back to counting the calories in your head every moment. It's honestly very tiring. And you can't think about other foods too much either. Which is why, me hungry= me thinking about food= me eating.

No self-control at all.

I bought a cubix for $2 at Outram Park one of the days last week when we went out for lunch. I did 2 and a 1/2 sides. I took some pics on my hp (yes, I am immensely proud of it), but i just sent it for repair today. Finally. It keeps switching off on it's own. I have to collect it in 3 days.

Luckily I didn't go to the one at Wisma. There's one here at Toh Guan, which is a 5-10 mins bus-ride away. Eh... Actually I did a lot of things when I didn't update. But too lazy to type them all down in detail like I usually do.

Went Malaysia, bought 1-week-pay worth of stuff. Only 3 items, actually. 1 long-sleeved top, 1 jacket-like something, and 1 imitation Dior sunglasses. All pics in my hp. Over ate, but still craving for the food we ate.

Showreel done. Only wensite and namecard left. Good luck to moi.

;P
LYL

071107 1718

I'll make this a short one cos I can't keep bitching about transcribing and sitting at one place so long to listen and type and then turn around and type a long post.

I haven't been posting for quite a while now and I thought now is a good time as any since, if I'm gonna sit here and type, I'm sore all over, give me 15 minutes to type this.

My shoulders are pretty stiff but I don't feel it. I know because I can feel it blocking the blood to my head so that the back of my head to my forehead tingles in slight pins and needles. Not exaggerating. I'm kinda sensitive to what my body feels.

The plan to drink a cup of beer (which is free here amxaudio (where we're temporarily situated because it's too cramped at Infinite) is not really working that much. I only got half a mug cos I get red easily. OH NO! Extra stiffness.

I love this job. I just don't like how it makes my body sore.

Thank the Indian Gods tomorrow is Deepavali.

:)
LYL

281007 2250

Oh I forgot to mention outher things that happened today. I drove to the airport right. Very well, if I do say so myself. Until we were on the long straight road near the airport and.... I think I didn't check my blind spot. Well anyway, apparently I cut in front quite close to this black... dunno what car. The one that looks like a jeep but is not.

He was horning me but I didn't hear. Nobody in our car did, apparently, pathetic wheez that it was.

It was until I turned back that I realised he was actually blasting his horn at me. But, what could I do, the damage was done. So I drove on and overtook the van ahead of me, which was the reason I swtiched lanes in the first place.

This bloody phony Jeep came up beside me and swerved right so I had to swerve along to avoid him.

My father blasted the horn at him. Yes. My father. I just drove on. Didn't feel much but that brief muted flash of panic when he swerved, actually. Gone as fast as it came. It helped that everyone was feeling indignant and panicky for me. Haha. I'm always the most calm in the middle of that, cos, why spread the panic?

My dad and B-gor were saying that they would have chased him down if they were driving. But, if they were driving in the first place, it wouldn't have happened.

Not my first brush with danger as a licensed driver (and definitely not the last), but certainly the most intense and exciting.

Went to the food centre at East Coast after T3. I forgot what it's called. But the food was nice. Certainly cheaoer than Popeye's too.

;P
LYL

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:D
LYL

271007 2224

I found the Sony Bravia advertisements indirectly and they are absolutely adorable.

At first I thought they were all composited. This paragraph is actually overwritten after I watched it carefully. Did they really do this? I would have liked to have been there...



And this is so cool. I wonder how they did it. Were they composited? Maybe not all but could they really have done that?



They are simply 2 of the most simply pleasant and wonderfully beautiful ads that snare your attention because you just can't look away.



Tomorrow we're going for the last shoot for my short short film. Finally. It will be at Hougang at 1330. I kinda miss filmmaking. This short couple of hours will hopefully kinder my fire again and help me get rolling into a few new projects, personal or otherwise.

I am also going to move my Screenplayer blog to blogspot as I will no longer be a member or Screenplayer come 1st Nov because of the changes they are making to the site.

:)
LYL

281007 1544

Today I went to the preview of Changi Aripot's T3 preview and I took loads of pictures. It was certainly a thrill to walk freely (mostly) around the place where you normally wouldn't be allowed to enter unless you are arriving our departing. It looks bigger, I expect, than when filled to the brim with people.

Very big, light and airy feel, with all the natural light. But I must say, apart from that, the architecture was quite... blah. Nothing really fantastic enough to impress, certainly.

But I'll let you see as much as you can see from a few pictures below. The rest can be found in my Facebook account in their own album.

I caught this photo while they were looking out at the empty runways.

Then we tried emo-ing and acting like rockstars.
:D
LYL

261007 0021

I was watching videos on Youtube and sometimes I just have nothing to do. So I typed in 'Gay'.

Hey. Not all of it is porn.

There's this real funny comedian. Not the best, but she's funny enough. And a gal, so I was curious when I saw the title. Watch it:

Margaret Cho - Gay Men Jokes


So I saw this other title and, please, how could I resist?

Pretty Boys III


Hai.... It's not that they're gay. Please. They really are very pretty. Girls that pretty are sluts. Guys that pretty are... wow.

;)
LYL

251007 0031

Oh ya, I wanted to say that I've started training for NAPFA. I really don't know if I can last till and throughout, but I;ve decided to try.

Went running yesterday, well, the day before actually. Going again today. Maybe by myself in the afternoon or maybe in the morning with my sis before she goes to school.

My muscles are tighter than usual, as after every real exercise session. BUt the stupid thing is that NAPFA requires you be loose enough to reach beyind your toes too. It's a very stupid scheme, let me tell you. It's such an ugly mark on the transcript which, although nobody will look at, is so bothersome.

I have the best academic record since my lower primary school days and I don't want a NAPFA: FAIL on there.

Well, it gives me an excuse to exercise. But I just wish it wouldn't give such an ugly result.

We ran 3 rounds, half of the supposed 2.4km and Ting gave up halfway. Hahah. I even had a call around then from Sherry. She let me pant through the phone while she talked. Then we went to the gym but we did all leg exercises. I did some crunches but nothing much.

Tomorrow, when I go to the gym at Gombak, hopefully I'll complete a 2.4km or work more thoroughly on my body. Maybe I'll take the treadmill's stamina regime.

Swinburne asked me for my portfoliw, btw. I've gotta send it in to the IDP office. Luckily Jean Anne helped me make a few copies of CDS of our works that day.

;P
LYL

241007 1553

It occurred to me that I haven't been reporting on what is really important to me. Mainly cos I forget. I'm not very good a such things....

My siblings, not including my draggy older sister, and I have tickets for the upcoming Linkin Park concert and My Chemical Romance Concert.

The LP tickets are a $128 each, which made my heart ache for me daddy. I'm a cheapskate. I totally admit. But I always said that there are a few people that I would absolutely attend thir concerts for if they ever came. LP and MCR are within the Top 5.

That... ok, yeah. It does release the ache a very very tiny bit.

But $128!!!!

At least MCR was $85 each. We wanted the free-standing $95 ones but.... I think I'll be seeing an anonymous guy's shoulders instead of the much anticipated Gerald's face, instead.

At last I get to attend rock concerts. And 2 that I really love, too.

I still haven't gotten the souveniors. I don;t really want to intrude on the rare quality time that they have cos King kor's always working. I can always get it when FP ka is feeling lonely again. Or needs the car. Hahah.

I'm part of the Fusion committee, I don't think I've ever mentioned that here. But anyway, those of you reading would know.

Now I have hardly anything to do anyway. I can only suggest ideas and comment on the current one. I don't really want to say 'I don't like that' cos I don't come up with any to replace them. But I have thought of an idea to support it. Gonna post it on the forum. I've added the link on the side. Go see, ok? Comment on anything. I know you guys are not in the committee but we need ideas. The theme is Training.

I think I had something else to say but I can't remember. Should be something else important in my own weird way.

;P
LYL

221007 1934

Tomorrow going to school for a discussion, some editing (dunno for what yet), and to go to the gym. Supposed to go today but I woke up at 2pm. Then ate an egg tart and drank some milo and was super full. So waited until 4 plus to ask me dad to go to the gym but he said we were going to pick my sisters up for dinner.

So I'm super full right now.

There's another Fusion meeting tomorrow night too. Come to think of it, I have nothing to show for it. Better get cracking.

;P
LYL

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MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!

I've got some really cool souveniours. Actually, I haven't got it yet. But I have it. I can't say where and what but.....

Don't worry, those of you who read this blog either know it already or will have it rubbed in your face reeeeeeaaaaaaaal soon.

BD```
LYL

201007 2313

So I have just finished bathing, have some problems starting up this laptop and here I cam blogging. I just couldn't wait!!! Oh. My. God!!!

I just came back from the last fight of The Contender that will be held in Singapore. The final match will be held in Las Vegas. And the match was UBER COOL!!! It was cooler than Wednesday's fight!!!

I brought Qiu instead cos DH couldn't go in the end. So never mind man. Cheering is cooler with your sis.

I won't say who the 2 fighting were - what's the fun in that? I know many others would be blogging about it but I won't flout the discretion rules. It's more fun that way.

QL and I each chose a side but actually I was supporting both. QL was supporting Blue and the photographer, who is now here new idol. Lawrence-something. Red won, of course (I was supporting him). But it was sooooooo close!!!

I loved Blue too. He lost by just 1 point. 1 point. It was the greatest fight ever!!!! They were both great fighters. But the Blue supporters spoilt it somewhat, booing the Red when the winner was announced.

I mean, come one. It's a fight. A close one. A fair one. And it was just a 1 point difference. They were both freindly with each other and Blue, although upset enough to cry, I think, was amiable about it.

So we went down the stands and tried to catch them.

Red roared us up a bit and.....

I ALMOST GOT HIS BOXERS!!!!!!!!!! He threw it up and it was right above me! It was MINE!!!! Then.... I was too short. This idiot of a guy grabbed it away from me. But we touched both fighters!!! MUAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

The hands that touched them.

Take that Serene!!!!

We asked King-kor, who got us the passes to get us in (which we are gonna frame up. Well, at least I am.)

I can't turn the pic but....

These are the people that Blue smiled at!!!!!

I love them!!! I mean the fighters. Well, love the 2 above, too.

I asked King kor to get us autographs. Or boxers. Hahhahahahahaha.......

But he most probably won't anyway. Hahhaa. But we still love him for the tickets. It's such perks that we take care of their kids for. HEhehe!!!

:D

LYL

191007 2304

Tomorrow is the last day of the short internship with Infinite Frameworks. I quite like it there. But I admit the only reason it's sian is because it ends too late to have dinner with EJ. Haha.

Ting posted a stupid blog post while we were waiting for Nisah, the Post-pro supervisor (i think). Check it out. I helped out too.

Tomorrow going for the last Fight Night to choose the 2nd Finalist for The Contender. I'm going with Duan Hua, my secondary school friend. I had a dream about her last night. Well, her and my other secondary school friends. But it was after thinking that I should be spending more time with those friends I'm neglecting.

Sorry, peeps. Those who wanted to go. I can only bring 2, including moi. I would have brought a family member to even it out but none wanted to go. Hai...

But I'm not confirmed if I can even go. I'll have to ask Nisah.

;P
LYL

121007 2203

I'm dying. I think it's the overload of food these few days. It was a warning. Today, it hurt real bad after dinner. I think it's indigestion. Hai.... My diet plan is failing more and more everyday.

I managed to feed EJ half a packet of bee hoon and all his fishcake!!!

EZ smiled and laughed and talked to me today while his brother lay next to him pretending to sleep and hugging and kissing him.

Pa, Ma, and Qiu went off to Genting and Ka and B-gor sent FP Ka and the s home. So right now, I'm alone in the house with Aunite Tini. Oh, all the evils I can commit...

Like clearing my facebook notifications and waiting for FP Ka to take her turn in Scrabble that I am finally playing, updating my blogs, reading fanfiction, checking my mails. Etc.

Tomorrow I'm going to attend Fight Night of The Contender which is a reality series on Thai boxing. It is also the one that I will be working on for my attachment in Infinite Frameworks. Coincidentally, King kor is working on it too, as one of the gaffers, thus the admission on tickets. I'm going with my kor-kor. YEAH!!! Brother-Sister outing!! Haven't had one in so long!!

I'm also going for more than one reason than to see people kick their noses open. But that is work-related, so read in my Screenplayer blog!

Sunday I am going with Jean Anne to Orchard Hotel for IDP Study in Australia Open Day. Bring down copies of your academics and they can book a place for you in the University straight away!!

I actually already applied via net to Deakin. But my dad asked me to apply for more. And look for some in Sydney too, as my cousin is staying there. My uncle and auntie want permanant residencies.

My mum does too. But I'm not sure if she's serious. She won't tell me out right. I ask her if she wants, so that I can plan. She says that I just have to think about what I want. Don't need to do it for her. And I one person what's the use? She needs at least 2 (50% of 4 children) and why do you need to plan?

I wouldn't even be considering going there if not for her saying she wants to be a PR there. My younger sister still ahs a chance of going and of course I need to plan!! This is another 3 years of my life after my University studies there!! I need at least 5 to bring them over. And I have to plan ahead and ready myself for 5 years of utter independence!

If she wasn't my mother, I would have asked how dare she.

Well, off to do my other works. I ahev to prepare for Sunday too!!

;P
LYL

111007 1249

I actually wanted to post an entry on the woderful lunch I'm having. Then I saw this video on the main page pf blogger.



It's suh a wonderful project. I have added the link on the side ofmy page where you can go to the blog.

I found another video.



And I'm going to stop thinking or reading it so that my lunch won't taste that bland.

To help me along, here is what I ahve to say aout my lunch:

It's leftovers from last night's feast of a dinner but Asian food always taste better overnight. Well, mostly.

I have Ikea beefballs with the jam. This is one of the greatest delicacies. I have Sambal cuttlefish and chicken and another chicken and I think Mutton Rendang and Petai with Ikan Bilis. And warm, leftover rice.

Heaven

:d
LYL

I spotted this on the side of my page where I have put a reel of YouTube videos concerning a range of tags, including filmmaking and homosexuality. For right now, in terms of way of life and moral issues, I am pretty passionate about both.

I caught a short film about homosexuality (which was ok, from another filmmaker's POV) and it led me to carefully inspect the line of videos there. You shold to. They're pretty interesting. I found another one:



He's funny. What I like about his speech is the way he spoke. Very matter-of-factly, which it was. If it were me, I'd have been trying to control my agitation at trying to get what I wsa feeling out so people could understand. He did his research too, and spoke very simply of them, so that even the people who oppose can understand.

Then I followed the thread and came up with this. And I thought The West Wing was boring. I loved the scene he made!



I found many other interesting ones that I haven't even watched yet but are waiting in my playlist. It consists of arguments for and against homosexuality. I want to understand the views from the opposite side. Sometimes, I can understand them. I mean that in a general debate, not one about homosexuality. For that, no one has yet given me an acceptable argument.

It puzzles me how people can hate others so strongly, not even people, a mere concept, which they don't even know about, and they have no reason to hate, with substantial argument to place against it.

Even to that concept, I can realize, that people just love to hate.

See, I can see sense in something I don't agree with. Can't everybody else?

I agree totally with the point John Corvino made with people hating people for loving.

That notion itself is bloody damn idiotic. I like the one about religion too, how he used religion to his advantage without directly insulting the bible. I do't mind saying that sometimes I lie awake and ponder about why people hate people for who they love. (I did that a couple of days after I saw the headlines on the newspaper about making it illegal for PDA between same-sex couples is still banned because 7/10 of the people still 'frown upon' it.) And I come up with the whole debate. I have always struggled with the religion part. But those concern my views on religion, which I will maybe talk about in the next post. But it will be pretty complicated because... I'll not spoil it.

Why they don't consent same-sex marraige yet I can understand, because a government does what the majority wants in a democracy. But if the leaders themselves are doing it for selfish reasons - leaders, in such cases, should not ahve any discrimination already, and if they do, should discredit them - then that is unacceptable.

I go back to the article I mentioned earlier. How many people did they survey? I never trust such surveys. That group of hundred or how many could have contained the most anti-gay people then the hundred beside them. You base our country and the happiness of people on that?

Here's something else I found funny.



I didn't even last the whole way through the video. I understand his loyalty to his ancestors but if they can't know them, you can't know them. Take in mind, we are discussing morals of people a thousand years dead whom we will never meet.

I'm Chinese. I know how the thinking of Asians, especially, can bring people up hating and fearing these things. My father and mother hate it. I don't.

And using laws that you don't even bother to think about except when you want to kill somebody for loving someone isn't helping much.

I have lots more to say. But I've exhuasted everybody, including myself.

:|
LYL

071007 2253

It's been a trying couple of weeks but this entry proves that I have survived. Congratulate me, people. I live.

Now, with significantly less things on my, I'm able to worry fully about trying to master Final Cut Pro by Wednesday, when I'll be attatched to Infinite Frameworks for less than a week. After that, it's another bout of trying to figure out what to do, then another attatchment week, figuring, then full 3 months of attatchment.

Refer to my Screenplayer blog for more details.

I'm excited for the experience I'll be gaining. I know it'll be a gruelling test of my passion against physical hard work but I'm sure the passion will win out. I'm not giving up my eye bags and rings for nothing!!

:D
LYL

280907 1747

I came upon this website - Celebrific.com - with the photo of Ben Affleck and Matt Damon. And they asked who was hotter. (http://www.celebrific.com/you-tell-me-whos-hotter-matt-damon-or-ben-affleck/)



I mean, this aren't the most flattering pictures of Matt Damon - he's only he's hottest in Bourne - but is this mocking Affleck? This are some of the worst pictures of him! Even compared to Damon's worst!!


I'm being partial here. Matt Damon looks ok. But put Ben Affleck next to him and his the most gorgeous man you've ever seen.

Disgraceful.

But to be honest, Matt Damon is one of the very very few - actually, I think he's the first, if not second, because I cannot remember one prior - that I admire for his acting abilities.

I watched Bourne Identity and the most I went was, "Cool..."

But after, I watched The Good Shepherd and it was, "SHIT COOL!"

Comparing the performances, Bourne is cool. Mother is Hot.

Another thing that attracts me apart from beauty is the talent. And that role in Good Shepherd was one of the most raw talent I've seen.

But I must say, after that, I had a whole new respect for Angelina Jolie too. I think I recognised her only in the 3rd or 4th shot of her in close-up. De Niro was not bad in there either. They all held themselves so differently from their usual roles. I'm digging through old movies to catch things I was too blind to miss before.

;)
LYL

270907 0140

God I am so desperate. I have to get a boyfriend soon.

I have a new idol, Matt Damon. And it's so typical of me to choose one already takn. Pathetic of me to try and prevent my heart from breaking when seeing a caption saying 'Matt Damon and his lovely wife...'.

Pathetic.

Worse still, I have to argue with myself that the picture they make while taking a walk is really sweet or not. ARGH!!!

If one is not gay the other is taken.

And I always hated that stupid phrase but it is just so true.

Not like anyone I've chosen so far is really attainable in anyway (another tick for miserability), but I swear if the one reasonable guy I fall for and is within my grasp is either one of that, (by taken, I mean married) I'll go lesbian.

Not really. But I guess I'll just take them into a larger consideration.

But Matt Damon is so totally cool.

And, to me, he's not even a pretty boy. He's not the usual I would go for, that's for sure. But I guess it has something to do with me loving the gay Randy Harrison in the first place.

Between

and

I think you can see what I mean.

Changing my target from Gay to Married is not an improvement. Though Tiff was rather relieved that he's my first straight idol in a while. At least the top one. I do love a man that strikes me as cute/handsome/beautiful, whether straight or gay. I just had an obsession with Queer as Folk, and thus, Randy Harrison and the gay characters for a while.

And too bad that the courage I value for coming out to the world is for homosexuals only. If straight guys can impress me with courage they are pretty rare.

;)

LYL

170907 2242

I haven't applied for Deakin and even after, I'm not even sure if I can get in. But the anxiety and sadness is still creaping in. I should be feeling excited but I can't help it. I'll be leaving so many things behind.

EJ and EZ are at this young period where it depends on whether I'll be there or not. And Ka is going to have a baby sometimes next year too. I'll miss all that!! NO!!!!!! This really overrides all the excitement of the opportunities that'll be opened to me.

Refer to my Screenplayer blog for that side of stuff.

I actually cried thinking about leaving. Of course it'll be exciting go to such an unfamiliar place with so many thigns to explore! To mae a new start and new friends! But it's so scary at the same time! No one I know (except maybe Jean Anne may be going too) will be there. It'll be so different from a holiday when you know that in a few days, you'll be flying home to everything and everybody again and that everything you do is just enjoyment and will have no real impact on your life but to have a greater time! And you really don't have to think about what I'm gonna do for dinner. How this will save me a coupla more dollars to last me throughout the week.

I said I'd always love the independence. It's a way to prove myself. But what I never said, though I did confess to myself, is that I know it'd be hard. And (although part of why I'll love it is the difficulty - I'm a masochist that way) if I think about it too hard and much, I'll be terrified.

I'll get through it because I know I can. I can prove myself through the experience. I want to push myself to my limits and I know I'll come out better the other side. It's sort of like a training I know I need. Though I know when it comes to the experience itself, it's a love-hate relationship.

I'll be applying soon. After the 21st, which is when our previous semester's results will be out, according to Jean Anne, who told me a little to late. I already have an official transcript from my school, which cost me $5.35. But it doesn't contain the results of the revious sem. So I'm waiting
to see if the new results will bring up or down my aggregate. Hahah. If it's up I'll just ay $5.35 more. (Although I'm still half hoping not to get in. Hm.... I'll get overit soon.)

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LYL

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I forgot what we were talking about today to lead to this particular topic but it did. And it ended as quickly as it started.

I think I was reminding one of my parents once again about dipping their food into too much sauce. And then my dad said something along the lines of, "See, if we ever attempt suicide one day, she'll be the one to pull the knife away from us."

So I said, "Yah, but you will pull it back anyway and still cut yourself."

It ended there.

I was thinking that if they were really in a bad mood or just not wanting to listen, my dad'd say, "Don't believe everything they tell you. A little cut won't kill you." and my mum would say, "Don't talk to me like that, ok? I'm your mother." and slice, dissatisfied, frowning all the way.

And they say I'm obnoxious and inappropriate.

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LYL

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It's been a kind of hectic lull. I don't know what to do with myself. Projects to do that are not being done (refer to my Screenplayer blog). I have an almost constant headache and an even more constant backache. Who ever said excercise makes your body feel better?
So I've decided this will be another blog I will update alongside my Screenplayer one, which is about my life as a budding-filmmaker. This one will eb more personal and used as a medium of sorts to bring others to the less known Ning webpages. I'm just more established there.
I don't know how or when my blog page is going to be set up. Qiu (my sis) is to help me. I think she has it half-done, but I haven't the urgent need to go look at it. I don't even have a solid idea anyway. It may remain the way it is now. I'm a simpleton. A gorgeous, beautiful one, but one nevertheless.
Links will be placed to link you guys to my other pages like my Ning pages and Facebook cos there is no point uploading pictures and information twice. I'll choose whichever webs I like more for their strong points and use each individually. I havea problem of just sticking to one. It's never worked before.
Now I'll go update the rest of my stuff. Watch out peeps!

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LYL

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It's my first blog post!!! Yeah!!! After this, witht the help of my dear sis, I'm gonna change the look of it. Cos I'm a computer idiot that way!!
I have other blogs but this is gonna be my HEADQUATERS!! Everything will branch out from here. Get ready peeps!!

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LYL